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Coming to Terms with Being Alone.


I'm only 20. I'll be 21 in two months but that doesn't matter right now. When my mom was my age she was married and was pregnant with my older brother. I think about that a lot sometimes. When I was in High School I dated. I could say I even have been in a certain kind of love before. It maybe wasn't the love i'd always imagined but I think it was love. When I moved to Utah people back home joked saying I'd be married in a matter of months. Hate to be a disappointment, but I have lived in Utah for around 17 months and I still am very much single and I haven't even been on many dates. At first this was frustrating and hard, honestly it still is sometimes, but I've grown to know myself better than I ever have simply because I've been alone. I believe that my Heavenly Father has been using this time in my life to help me come to terms with me, before that wonderful special someone comes into my life. When I was 16 (holy cow that seems like forever ago) I wrote a blog post called Dear, Prince Charming. I was 16 years old and was writing things like, "Please always love God, pray often, and be the worthy man I need." I must have been a wise teenager who was taught well. I to this day know that my husband is out there. I also know that I can't just sit around feeling sorry for myself. He will come, I've been promised, and so have you. Lonely hearts thrive together. In the movie P.S. I love you there is a quote that says, "So now, all alone or not, you gotta walk ahead. Thing to remember is if we're all alone, then we're all together in that too." There are many people who are alone. Use the time you are alone to grow in yourself. Grow in your faith and in your testimony.There are people older than me and more deserving than me out there who are waiting for their love. Do I still believe in princes? Do I still believe in princesses? Yes! I do! We are children of God. We are loved and we are cherished. Just because we are not yet married doesn't mean that we are alone or any less deserving of love. We have friends, we have family, we have church leaders, church members, classmates, coworkers, cousins, and we especially have our Heavenly Father. Who are we to feel alone!? Stand tall all you singles out there. Make someones day. Make someone happy. Make yourself happy. Hold tight to the brightness of the future. 

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