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What are Words.

Firstly, What are Words by Chris Mendina is a BEAUTIFUL song. I mean it. I cry almost every single time I listen to it. Lately I have been finding myself feeling old, alone, and desperate. Then I simply remind myself that I am only 18 years old and thankfully I have a lot of life still to live. I find a lot of my thoughts started up on Pinterest. I'm slightly addicted and I really don't need to be addicted to another internet site. Anywho, one of the quotes I saw said, "Have you prayed about it as much as you have talked about it?" Good question, quote. This is so true. A lot of times I find myself complaining about my life in words. If I would simply turn to the Lord in prayer I would find the answers I have been searching for. Can you imagine how much more loving, caring, kind, and genuine the world would be if they stopped spending so much time on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest(dang I had to put it in there), or any other site and spend that time studying and buildi…

2 Weeks. 14 Days. 336 hours. 20,160 minutes. 2 Weeks.

Two weeks ago I was praying to survive each minute. A week ago I was praying to survive each hour. Today I started praying to make it through the day. A day at a time, right? Two weeks ago I lost my job, and broke up with my boyfriend. I know the whole heartbreak thing is very "teenager" of me, but it hurt and It's taken some getting used to. Two weeks ago if you asked me what I was going to do I would have replied with an outburst of sobbing and my nose running. Today, if you asked me the same question I would actually be able to give you an answer. So you might be wondering how I am two weeks later from whole ordeal. I am doing OKAY. I am going to be just FINE. I don't question this, I know this. I've learned to take baby steps. The first thing great that has happened to me was a J-O-B. You heard me! I am the luckiest girl in the world to only have been unemployed for two weeks. What a blessing. This has given me something to look forward to and that's a st…

Big Miracle. Small Package.

As I begin to start my life again from scratch, I have found small miracles that have made each day easier. I think we all get to a point after we reach rock bottom where we realize that we have control over how the situation turns out. Like this quote above, trials can define you, destroy you, or it can strengthen you. I have chosen to let it strengthen me. When I realized that crying wasn't working anymore and I was going to have to actually move on, is when I started noticing my small miracles. It started with a small package from my aunt.What I thought was probably something I had left at her house this summer, turned out to be a gift. A gift for me. A gift for me in the mail from my aunt. I opened this small package, unwrapped the paper, and opened the box. What I discovered was a heartfelt letter from my dear sweet aunt and a willow tree statue called "Angel of Light." My aunt told me words of wisdom and I knew in my heart that heavenly father prompted her to send…

Don't cry because it's over, Smile because it happened.

I can say this now because I have almost made it 24 hours without shedding a single tear. I will survive. On Friday my world turned upside down and I found myself at a weak place. I found out that the place I worked at was closing down and that I no longer would have a job. I was upset. I love my job. Lately there had not been much that made me happier than my job. So once I discovered that I was losing the only source of happiness I realized that something was wrong. Then, I decided to break up with my dear sweet Joshua. Oh how I loved him, but sometimes love just isn't enough. I will always have a special place in my heart for him. I know I seem very positive and okay with it now, but less than 48 hours ago I was crying my eyes out every five minutes. Leaving someone you love is NOT easy. I needed to clean my slate, and start completely over. I found myself jobless, single, emotional, and alone. To my surprise I soon found out how not alone I am. Many people posted on my Faceboo…